December

It's been such a long time since I put any thoughts down on my blog! And, not for lack of thoughts, but more like lack of time. Trying to balance so many plates at one time usually means one or two fall by the waste side. I hate resolutions, but I....resolve to put more of my thoughts on this blog to share.

This post could be about a lot of things-a recap of my year, a hope for the promise of next year, a love letter/thank you note to all that matter to me, but honestly, I wanna write something to the month of December.

This is my favorite month of the year. And not just because it's my birthday month. Although it's cold out and there's usually snow in NYC, the month of December gives me a warm feeling like no other. December 1st has always felt like a New Awakening for me, and I always feel like a little piece of who I am is so different 31 days later when the month ends. If a month can move that much progress in me, surely you can understand why New Years resolutions and things seem to be too much, lol.

As a city girl, the whole place is buzzing with people and noise and holiday music and beautiful lights. There are new delicious holiday treats and drinks (don't judge me) designed to fill you up and warm your heart. People are preparing to spend time with the people they love the most in the world, and laughter is shared and new memories are made all month long.

The past few Decembers haven't been some of my all time best, but even when I was at my saddest point, I couldn't resist listening to a little Christmas music, stopping to see decorations in different areas of the city, and even watching children take pictures with Santa Claus. It all brings back memories of sweet days gone by. This year was the best out of the last 3 Decembers, and I think that signals a change in myself. Not for the better. Just for the manageable.

People always say the past year was like a roller coaster but for me, it really was! I felt like I was on Kingda Ka out here in '11--I was up, then stable, then down, the low, then LOWER, then stable, then low again, and finally stable till I reached a manageable high for me. It wasn't easy, but at least towards the end I was able to enjoy the ride.

So, on this last day of my favorite month of the year, I look back on some of the things that gave me the perspective I plan on taking forward for the next 11 months of my rebirth--the highs and lows of my job, my successes with my students, the bonds I have made and cultivated with good new friends and kept with great old friends, the growth and learning process I am on regarding my romantic relationships, the dedication and resolve I have shown stepping out of my comfort zone a little more, the work that I have put in to add fitness to my life more often, and the maturity I have acquired on my way to celebrating my 30th birthday last week. I may not have had everyone with me that I wanted, but I enjoyed my day immensely still. All of these things helped me prepare for another year of whatever may come-good, bad or indifferent.

So, December, I bid you farewell, and await my stories on growth and maturity in the months to come.

Happy New Year!!!